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| I'm so distrated its not even funny. this is the fuckin 3rd time already. YOU KNO THAT! THE FUCKIN 3RD TIME!! it's the third time that I said I was gonna not touch the computer and do my fuckin essay, but yet here I am back on the computer. I dont know why I'm feeling so distracted, it's like I want to avoid the work so bad and I dont know why.I'm constanly havin this horrible dread of work piling on top of me. If I was normal I would just think about it logically and say to work on it now and shit. And that as long as I just do it I can always bs it. But even while knowing that, I'm not doing it and instead choosing to mope about it. GAHHH I'M SICK OF IT!!! WHY CANT I JUST DO IT. ITS NOT THAT HARD!!!!!!!!work, work, work, work, work. Is my life constanly filled with jst doing work for school. Just thinkning abo9ut it makes me pissed. Well it's not hard work but its eating me and I'm always making it up. Whhy am I always like this. ;__________________; I want the damn cycle to just endd..AND PPL DONT CARE. NOT THAT I GIVE A FUCK. | | |
| OMG NATSUME YUUJINCHOU EPISODE 7 IS SO FUCKIN CUTE!!!! I love you fox boy*dies* | | |
| uh guess i was here for something. My eyes hurt (*A*) Well I love 1827 better than this pairing but it's so goku's puppy love is sweet too. I like abusive relationships better. *evil gleam* poor tsuna. 8D use a condom always. Uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..........school is okay. And not gonna die about it or something...... booger wipers. D: I cant wrote when I know somones gonna read it later...I already vent it out on my mom. I was talking really fast though so I wonder if she actually understood. ^^' Well hopefully she got the main point. uhuhuhuh. ok HI AUGI *DIES* | | |
| Everything seems like a kind of sad boring. I look at my life in the future and the past and it all seems to end up so boring, that I want to cry. Everyday seems like the same evryday. Get up, tired and not wanting to go to school, go to school, more boring and sad, and can't wait for it to end, hang out with friends that I can't talk right to anymore, and the go home to do homework, that reminds me of school and makes me more sad, then go to sleep that makes mehappy, but them to repeat the same cycle again. My day feels like its full f shit that I have to trudge along, th I can't do what I want to do anymore. nothing . makes me feel like the good 'ole me. he weekends don't make me feel happy anymore either. I don't know why it just feel like it. I slpet almost the entire dayhat it feels like I have accomplished nothing at all today. BUt then I wake up and it makes me wa to go to sleep again. Sometimes I sayto mysely "I don't want to grow up ever" In my mind I want to sta14 forever the only good days in my life. Neve had I ever felt salive. But then they're faing away. And sometimes I think I was aways the same as now. Emo -_-' Can'help it. *sigh* MaybI should see a phycartrist. | | |
| wow it's already december.Damn I think I'm really sick, I'm shivering all over. And my head hurts but I want to get these feelings out. I did before and that only resulted with me crying in my bed all by myself. Yay! nobody reads this anymore!! XD I write in xanga for no reason and i like to rant here X3 Damn, samui desu nee!!! I noticed i always get sick when I'm really depressed. Like last year I was so sick, coughing and sick. BUt I kept on pushing myself to not taking care of myself cuz I really wanted to get sick and not go to school. >:D i'm psycho. Well they say if yu're a little sick and yu're depressed at the same time, it'll make yu feel even worse. hahaha then i won't go to school. I'm so sick of school. I hate it, I'm not myself anymore there. And when I feel sad I'm aleways acting hyper even thpough I don't want to. I'm such a weak person. I hate it!! I HATEIT!! Wow I stopped trembling. noooo!! XD I'm really depressed but the signs are showing me all happy *sigh* I just don't think anybodies my friend anymore. Everybodies drifting away damn it. Just b/c nobody wants to go to barnes and nobles, and I not truely hppy. Damn I hate Franny for making me notice. this fuckin sucks. Maybe I'm just jealous at what Augi said. She said Ada was her idol. So what am i to her then? She doesn't even want to talk to me. I'm acting such a chile ;_; but that's just who I am. that'll be great if i just collapse her and end up in the hospital. Fine i'll go to school just to get even more sicker. Am a masochist??? lol I don't care if I die in the process either. Wouldn't that be awesome Augi would stop saying she hates me and I'll die little by little..damn this sucks i'm crying If anybody saw this I'm so dead. I don't wwant anybody finding out I'm emo like this. Is it true that yu'll just have to cheer up myself. But i guess I ain't that much of a strong person. yay!! and then I'll war some like summer clothes!!!! yeah!!! that'll be super special awemse!! Wow i never knew i had this sort of masochistic feelings inme!! yay!! get so sick!! Stay up all late and then go to school early I'll defiantly collapse in the proccesss hahahah that's just wonderful!!! XD And I'll push myself to be happy and everything in the proceesss!! shave like 4o years off my life X3 sounds good XD Cuz i just like noticed that obody fuckin cares no matter how hard i try. Yu don't want me to be emo but yu dopn't want me to be stupid either. So what do yu want from me. ahahah i swear to god I'll try to push myself to the hardest till i collapse!! not telling anybody. yay I shouold stop cuz I'm thinking I'm scaring the readers not like anybody is reading XD | | |
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